the time now is 3A.M and i cant really sleep. stress? nah. more like being furious! anyway im gonna try on the scheduled-post thingy. so i guess this will be out on tmr, 10.30A.M.

was talking to lifnoh* and cfs* on msn juz now. very very -__-" the conversation is sort of un-nutritious (as in now it's exam period). and there are some issues that lifnoh* and i have different stands. anyway, shall not elaborate much here as it's not sth happy/ nice. gzz.

on a happier note, i finally got my (new) student card! finally its because i spend almost 2 hour waiting (and walking back and fro from bld 69 -.-"). in another word almost 2 hours are gone and not study. super waste time. luckily i din ask ms hpi*or lifnoh* to go together. else waste so much time i guarantee ms hpi's face will turn green (as i said now it's almost exam time and she SURE keep thinking not enough time and time is preeeecious, shall talk abt it later). anyway back to the topic of the card, i think it jinx a little coz i have to enrol in some course (for my case, coz im not doing hons, i enrol in summer course). SUPER JINX ok?! gzz.

abt the topic of no-more-time, i think ms hpi* is sort of pissed when the devb discussion is push till tmr coz qmzo* was doing skyping with her sister back home. although when i asked her she say she 'is ok'. but according to pass experience, she is not lor! it's just that whether this time round will she tell other ppl abt how we spoilt her study plan -.-" (recall last semester to ms tbc*). that's why there are time i very hesitate to tell her those plan which is categorized as 天外一笔. and thing is, when i ask, she always say ok. and turn around being not ok. super ^#&$%^*@. (then again, its not that im okie with a lot of 天外一笔 stuff as well, it just that if i think i cant/ dont wish to go then i wont go - unless being forced! gzz.) i treasure the moment with ms ubo*, although there are times i think she is being very naggy/ noisy (=p), but we always terus-terang when there is an issue. i mean, if there is any, come and tell me straight to my face! gzz.

my supervisor emailed me and say he submitted my marks for SCIE3012. ohmygod, why was he telling me that?! like i can persuade him to change it to a better grade?! gzz.

now i feel better after these rantings (with all the lousy language and grammar) - with the risk this being see by others. who cares?! (okie, as in now, i might feel guilty and delete this tmr lol. posting up these things really pollute my blog and also make ppl hard to justify abt those ppl u are talking abt). gzz.

大清早就被楼下割草机 （吸草机？）的声音吵醒，
窗外的天被一层层厚厚的云覆盖，
仿佛在预言着这是个不适生产的一天。=（

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昨夜的雨该把我的黄色小道给蹂躪了吧？
想象满地遍野的花瓣尸体，
我竟然难过起来。

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该怎么形容我和 LI先生* 的关系呢？
普通朋友？好像稍稍多过吧？
饭友？ 那该一年前吧？我现在的饭友主要是 HPI小姐*。

我们都没开口那个玩意，别人都说我们之间的关系，应该多过只是互相关心； 旁人 OH先生* 看得也都快急死了。
我们从没有正视那个问题，就像无解的是非题， 让人伤透脑筋；
就像易碎的陶瓷艺术，深怕一不小心把它捏碎，然后被其割伤。

对于感情，我很少持悲观态度，除了这次！我是怎么了？？
想到回去要面对的他&/ 问题，忽然12月10日の回家~ 也没那么令人向往了。
是城市生活让我们都怯于勇敢面对感情吗？
爱，真的需要勇气。

（*化名）

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这篇用华文。
华文华语比较不行的朋友！对，我绝对是故意的。
既然不能用密码封锁，我也只能使出杀手锏了-语文杀手锏。 总不能用日文吧？再说我的日语说真的也没那么强。

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你有吗？不曾兑现的诺言。

GOOD LUCK TO IVANNY WHO IS GONNA HAVE HIS FOOD MICROBIOLOGY 1 PAPER TOMORROW!

see ivanny, i'm very 够朋友 right?! hehee~

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im so so slow in revision -.-"
spend almost one week in that seemingly harmless molgene -.-""
if im gonna take another week for developmental molecular mechanism, will i have time for ecology of disease then?
oh god, please bless me with wisdom in effective time management. -amen-

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dear iris,
sorry i think i will need some time in getting u a shout box in your blog.
-slap myself-
do u need that urgently? let me know ok?

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i shall 闭关修炼 again. like what i did during molgene mid sem exam last time.
like some of the people do. ;)

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ju~ mentioned in her blog abt introverts should drink alcohol and extroverts should drink coffee before exams.
that's why im finishing my last bottle of heineken.
aiya, i am introvert what. cannot meh?
but again, ju, why is that so? i think u told me before but i cant remember! =X must be the alcohol lar. i hope i dun have the associate risk factor gene as taught by peter dodd. hmm, sth to do with DRD2 A1 and B1 allele?
oh shit. cant remember. =(

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i called home.
my mom ordered me to eat well and rest well.
shall obey her today by sleeping at 11pm. right after this entry.
hee~

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i called my sister. she's having her first paper on monday. sth to do with highway (?)
okie, she's studying civil engineering ok?!

i then called my brother, who will be having his first paper on monday also (!!). the subject is fluid power.
he's studying mechatronic engineering.

haiya, everyone starts so early. i wana join the crowd ler.
if only i can shift either 12th/ 13th paper to monday. =/

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again, good luck to all who is starting exam tmr/ monday. you know who u are, right? *grinz*


ciao~

bet

ms tan and i juz decided on a bet regarding ms goh's indecisiveness on her too-good-to-be-true offer.

i hope i will win! hahaa~ ;)

this 2 KB friends of mine:

K one call me fat (肥) ,
B one call me old (like born in 1981).

WIN ALREADY LOR!

$@#^%$&%^*$&%^#

super grumpy.

it's so expensive.
i mean the printing service here in UQ.
i miss the days in SP where i print back and white for 1 cent per page, and (i think) =<20 cents for color printing.
today, i spend ~4 bucks in total for colour printing =S
that's the value for a meal (small size) in physio refac can?
oh, u will still have 80 cents change back.

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ivanny previous blog mentioned everything almost/ going to die on him.
*recall my suey days N years back* (when i was still studying in SG)
-- hp lost + the one and only cordless phone spoiled + modem kena lightening thus spoiled + alarm clock decide to commit suicide + TV screen only shows black and white without warning + lamp starter don't work + computer finally become permanently paralysed--
and that spoiled modem didn't really affect me much 'coz the computer died on me the next couple of days.
super black super suey. i hope this kind of bad luck wont befall me or my families or my friends.
*bad luck bad luck go away*


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finally i've done with SCIE3012 =D

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6 more weeks and i'll be home!~
**home S-W-E-E-T home**

By end of this week....

by end of this week (24/10/2008), i will throw away all the hard copies of journal articles/ review papers i have for intro to research/ molgene assignment/ devb assignments.

and im going to release stress before study week starts on 27 oct, which means i only have either sat or sun! where i can either cam-whore/ idle or messing ard/ do some shopping window shopping or doing just nothing!

oh gosh, im so so so looking forward =]

Personality test:

在寒冷的空氣中，毛線會帶來溫暖的感覺，要是收到別人親手編織的毛線衣，更是幸福一路到底的心情。
你會希望收到以下那種色彩的毛線衣呢？



Ａ－綠色
Ｂ－咖啡色
Ｃ－粉色或紅色系
Ｄ－白色或米白色系






＊ 測 驗 分 析

選擇Ａ的人
你是個冷靜取勝的人，在你心裡，認為有理走遍天下，當有狀況發生時，你首先會壓抑怒氣，
努力向對方說理，把事情是非交代清楚。這是你處理衝突的方法，但有時秀才也會遇到兵，碰
上無理取鬧的人，有理也說不清時，那你可就會怒火中燒，儘快離開現場。


選擇Ｂ的人
你平時是有話就說的人，因此當有人惹到你時，你也不會是忍氣吞聲的角色，尤其是對方沒理
卻還敢大小聲，那就會立即點燃你不甘示弱的火氣，先發一頓脾氣是常態，給對方一點下馬威
，宣示不是軟腳蝦的立場，雙方面紅耳赤的場面你也不會懼怕，反正有理你一定要爭到底，直
到對方說對不起才罷休。


選擇Ｃ的人
當你和他人意見相左時，其實你不見得會生氣，要引爆你的脾氣火藥庫，除非是對方欺人太甚，
尤其是採取欺騙你的手段，把黑說成白，最後要是被你發現，那事情可就大條了，這會讓你想要
翻臉，徹底戳穿對方的假面具；就算你考慮其他因素，隱忍沒當場發作，以後再也不會信任曾欺
騙你的人了。


選擇Ｄ的人
要引爆你的脾氣導火線，是一件不簡單的任務，因為你生氣時，其實也不會當眾動怒，你寧願一
個人默默生悶氣，也不想說出來，更不要說當場發飆罵人，失去了你的風度，但是你難看的臉色
，還是向所有看到你的人，用ＳＮＧ宣告了非常不爽的心。


** i chose c. yes i hate it when ppl lies.
what about u?

wahaha~

friends ber and yk are trying to find my blog! nv they know ben actually link me in his blog!
wahaha..
leave me a comment if you all find me! yes i challenge you all!!
*evil grin*

to ms hpi*

because today is such a good day (& what you did, did not bring me down).

i'm movin' on.

yawnz-

there is another 2 more. yea i mean assignments. 40% and 20% each.
i dun think i can hold it any longer. i needda relax. and sleep. food? nar. not in my priority now. anything that makes me feel full will do.

-yawnz, yawnz

Angry with yourself

do that happened to you before?

i spend more than an hour hanging clothes just now. given my -ahem- efficacy, i usually spent less than 15 minutes for that ~10 pieces clothes.

my friend once commented that he feel really lousy if he accidentally placed his favourite white shirt with clothes that color will run. that never happened to me 'coz i always segregate light color clothes and dark color one when it comes to laundry.

but i feel really ^$%&^%* when i forgot to check if there is TISSUE left inside pocket (which i forget to take it out) before i put that piece of cloth into WASHING MACHINE. that happened to me just now when i get my dark color clothes washed and about 1 hour later when the machine beep and i open the lid and realise......

THERE IS TINY BITS OF WHITE TISSUE EVERYWHERE!

i cant help but swear lor coz it's a basket of DARK COLOR CLOTHES. and hor, the washing machine in manors is so powerful i guess it really SPIN your clothes. can imagine the tissue bits are so tiny that it's like dandruff on dark color clothes =S

so i spend like forever trying my very best to pick out/ pat off the tiny white thingy off all most of my dark color clothes. how can i forget to check?! it's not the first time already.

if that never happened i could have finished hanging my clothes in less than 15 mins and continue my drama and even get some eye-shut and continue my DEVB group assignment and look through it again before i continue on my intro to research report.

sibeh angry with myself.

this was quite some times back:



I HEART MY ANGELS


it's the battle time now: very little time, a lot of works =(
plus exams around the corner, double =((
(oh yea, i think my sad face curve can reach my kneecap, LOL!)


however, it is always nice to have friends who are encouraging/ funny and hilarious (makes me laugh heartily/ [insert good points]

or some you just know they will be there for you no matter what happened.


eg, my msg with ben earlier on msn:

it was damn hilarious when he talked about the forehead thingy XD in fact, i laughed so hard that im awake from my long boring DEVB3002 assignment. how boring? extremely. see the background? all about HS, GATA1, EKLF and other TFs that i cant remember off hand. oh yea, did i mention this is not the worst? evo-devo is. with *take deep breath* metazoan-bilaterian-echinoderm-iophotrochozoan-deuterostome-ecdysozoan-arthropod-chordate-cnidarian-opisthokont-annelid-mollusc-choanoflagellate. *panting* only heard about annelid and mollusc and arthropod before evo-devo classes. and this is yet the complete monophyly of the metazoa =S oh did i mention the parazoa or perifora? dunno what is it? well, it is commonly known as SPONGE.



next, i opened my mailbox 3 days ago and discovered this:



i use "discovered" coz im really, really surprise!

it was from my dear Iris who we got to know each other since P1 (and yes our friendship last until now!)

very encouraging especially during battle time like now!

i'll see you in less than 3 months time babe!! miss you LOADS!

another eg, friend Eilen from church made me (and my housemates) carrot cakes and send them to us *appreciate* as expected, it was nicely baked and suuuuuper delicious.

but im really very very bad with taking food picture =p



lastly, whenever i look at my mobile phone, i'll see this:

presented from my dear lovely sister!

oh my gawd, im so blessed to have you all! whether near or far, whether i mention your name or not in this entry, you know you have a place in my heart! I LOVE YOU GUYS! i heart you all as friend and family =)

I HEART MY ANGELS.

LOL

DEVB3002 take home exam - submitted! eeehoo!~~
weird thing is, i copied and paste (most of the) answers from text book! and turnitin only detects 12% similarity. and that includes the reference and questions!

my pharmacology assignment 1 semester ago - also 12% similarity. and i WROTE THAT MYSELF.

i might as well just copy and paste lor.
LOL

FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS!

FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS

hmm, i left a comment on ivanny's exam dates out!!, trying to persuade myself although my exam time table sucks (like BIOL3002 on 10th 2.30pm, DEVB3002 on 12th 11.15am and BIOC3003 on 13th 2.30pm -- the last 2 papas are well-known killer paper).. at least my assignments-submission-due-date-list is somewhat shorter.

then i realise, it's really not just about how long/ short is the list. it's the weightage of each piece of the assignments that matters.

DEVB3002 take home exam due this coming Friday (20%). DEVB3002 literature review due next Friday (30%) -- which means, if i could score this 2 pieces, i will have -ahem- better life for my final exam.
the question here is, IF since the take home exam is really the standard of take-home-exam ie super hard and can't seems to find relevant good resources, and for the assignment, my group mates don't seem to have enough.. chemistry? to keep the work flow going smooth =S
talking about group assignment, i start to miss Mr Satoshi already. an excellent group member i would say.

BIOC3003 literature review (20%, due 24th oct). i think i will continue my last min style of work for this piece of assignment. looked through the calendar and it's like just don't have time (unless i don't sleep). seriously, i admire those who can don't sleep/sleep very little while still able to get their brain functioning. for my case, if i just stay through the night and force myself to work in front of computer, usually (1) i will doze off in front of the computer irregardless how much junk food i eat just to coax myself to stay awake, or (2) the piece of assignment end up really cannot-make-it with typo all around the place, english that doesn't flow, weird grammar, etc.
tried and tested. recall my pharmacology assignment (marks: 19/30). hmphhh.

lastly, intro to research poster (30%) on 17th oct and final report (40%). NOTHING has been done so far for intro to research. sweat.

FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS!!
only by finishing all the assignments i'll be able to switch my focus to course work and start revising for exams.

random random

not that i don't want to belive lar, but i think the daily horoscope thingy from Keen Horoscope are bloody accurate loh.

for eg, on 19th Sept, it says:
"Navigating through sabotage
Ignore the pettiness and move forward. Their drama will ultimately favor you. "

(that is the week whereby the drama-yve having all her drama and link me into it. =S so boliao. and i shall not pollute my blog with her nasty words).


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i slept at 2am this morning with EOD assignment around 80% done.
the first sun ray that wakes me up - it's so bright i cant go back to sleep. that was 7am.
i turned around and saw little orange furry ball, starring at me.

*see how u gonna sleep with im starring at u*

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*EOD EOD EOD*

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alright then i was awake. EOD? be it eod bod or eoa. i just hate to do assignments. i mentioned i rather go for exam, didn't i?

(oh well, there is chance that i might wana take this back. though chances are very slim. but must save some 后路).

then i actually start a dumb round of cam-whoring with all the soft toys won from EKKA.

eg sth like that:

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or something like that:

oh well i know lar this is so bo liao.

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i think im so crazy.
i actually feel DOWN after submit my EOD assignment at 2.50pm.
im so pervert.

Statistically...

Statistically...

i vaguely remember that once i did this statistic during the boring Biostatistics class on the frequency i blog (that is, when i was still using multiply for blogging).

and the statistics showed that it was during exams/ assignments submission periods that marked the peak of my blogging frequency.

and i guess that still holds true! lol..

how many more assignments before i can truly enjoy mid-sem break? i wouldnt even dare to count!

back to EOD assignment. ciao!

ohmygod...

...how did it get to the-twenty-something of September in just a blink??

"terlajak kata tak boleh undur"

ok lar i know it's a bit late but i dont follow news happened back in malaysia/singapore mar.. haha paisei..

so, this Bukit Bendera Umno chief Datuk Ahmad Ismail (dunno who exactly) had said something nasty to the Chinese community. (no need to search for that lar). anyway my personal view is that since it was the merdeka month and thus racist remark as such shouldnt have been made..and i somewhat think that Tun Mahathir's blog (see here) is somewhat not that appropriate (some statements are wrong eg #9 coz im so sure wee meng chee apologized.. and also he isnt even -ahem- pemimpin.. anyway let's not side track). i'm somewhat can't help but think Tun Mahathir is not happy with Pak Lah's performance, but i wonder if it ever occur to him that it is exactly his own styles of governing that lead to the -ahem- politic situation now in Malaysia (eg the Anwar case). My personnal view is that there should not be ONE single leader that lead tooooooooo long. hahaa =X And in this incident, i personally think that he shouldnt have to publish such post.. it was like add oil to the burning fire.. a bit dumb.. and i somewhat think he is trying to create another round of racist issue and interfere with the politics.. haiz. i somewhat think probably he is too free after retirement..

anyway my persoanal point of view is that it is the person who responsible should apologize, not the PM/party. he is the leader and he should have those critical thinking skill and justify what should be said and what should not. being insensitive is the one main thing that some of the leaders always intentionally or unintentionally do, creating rounds and rounds and chaos.. in fact, i think they are having fun out of it -.-"

im not sure but i think the more i explore other countries (whether physically or just discussing with other people from other countries i met), (and uncontrollably compare that to my own country), the more i think things could be better since we are self-claim we are 'berbilang kaum' (which means multi racial). races aside, we are all malaysian. how i wish it somewhat turn into a better place to live in (politically and economically peace and harmony), as oppse for most of my friends say "wah u in sg/aussie now?? dont come back lar! malaysia no hope ald!"

which is like so sad can? after all it is the place where my darah tumpah-ed. even if im in sg/aussie, i still dunno how to sing their national songs ok!


p/s* i must again emphasize that all the statements in this post are based on MY OWN PERSONAL VIEW (as u can see there is a lot of "somewhat" and "personally"). u could have different opinion, that's fine. i'm very into human rights one ;) but dun sue me lar. im poor student who, if u sue me, i'll sure lose the law suit coz i got no $ to hire lawyer! lolx

p/p/s* anything written in here don't necessarily represent what i in the future. hmm, yea. that's it.

我的月亮天蠍日

情緒：尊嚴很受傷的日子, 很沒章法的兩天半。


事件：像聽到人家形容我的某個行為很像我很討厭的个性，當場聽到害我覺得很受辱而介意得不得了，想窮究到底哪裡像而更狼狽不堪。又有一次是我跟人聊天，談到一個曾經欺負過我的人，我的內心當然是滿腹委屈，但不知情的朋友居然說那個人是好人這種話，聽得我又開始不舒服，若他是好人，那我是什麼呢？活該嗎？反正，這真是很挑戰自我、黑暗面充斥的。